Goodbye 2009, hello 2010
Happy New Year Everyone! Tonight we had dinner with two of our very good friends J&J. They live in Baltimore and we rarely see them so it was very nice. Now we are hanging out at home with a couple other friends. Wine and Rock Band how can you go wrong!!!
Hopefully it will be a wonderful new year with lots of great suprises!!!
The festivities are over
We had a wonderful few days in CT. Spent time with my mom and aunt at the casino, stayed up way to late but came home $300 ahead! Made delicious pierogis and saw my dad. I got some great gifts and was happy to see my aunt and meme as well. We brought gifts over to my god daughter who just happened to want everything we got her…..including clothes! She is the cutest thing!
After seeing my family we headed back to Albany, went to Trees grandmas house and saw all her cousins. After a lovely night sleep we woke up and headed to Trees parents. We had a yummy breakfast then opened all our gifts. I was soooo shocked that my mother in law got me the P.andora charm I really wanted. Its a cute little wedding cake. I got another charm from my sister in law too. We got a neat piggy bank that you can write on with dry erase markers. It said “baby fund” and had $100 in it……I was shocked! It was just a very thoughtful gift. After gifts we hung out, I took a nap and then we had dinner. It was a lovely day!!!
Today my wife was amazing, she let me go to 3 different T.argets!!!! I got some cute stuff to put away for our niece and lots of baby books that were all on sale. Now we are watching a movie and relaxing!
Monday I will go pick up my meds at the new FC and I have to remember to ask what my FSH was. Tomorrow we are going to start looking for our new donor. Its looking like we will start Lupron in Feb for a March retrivial!! I am so excited!
I hope you all had a wonderful holiday!
Twas the eve of Christmas eve
We are heading to CT to begin our holiday festivities. Today is my moms birthday so we are picking her up and heading to the casino to spend the night. It’s what she asks for every year and we have a good time! My aunt is meeting us there to so it will be nice! then tomorrow morning we will go to my memes and make pierogis. we eat early there… mushroom soup and the yummy pierogis. If you haven’t guessed we’ re Polish. We will open gifts there then head to my god daughters house so I can spoil her, then next door to my aunt and uncles. And then we head back to NY and go to Trees grandmas and spend the night at her parents so we wake up there on Christmas morning. It’s a lot all crammed into a few days but it’s all worth it. We are lucky that we don’t have to skip one of our families houses!
We had our appt at the new Drs office…. Amazing! They were so friendly and helpful. The place looked like a spa when you walked in and had that zen feeling through out. they even gave me a goodie bag, a book, journal, and a free treatment of my choice at the spa upstairs!!! I think I’ll be getting a massage soon! We talked about our options and the Dr recommended a lap and a couple rounds of IUIs with injectables. If that doesn’t work…. IVF. I said how about we skip the IUIs and go right to IVF. I think he was a bit suprised and said that would be fine and eliminate the need for the lap. We talked with the financial lady and she said to call the month before we want to start so we can get everything ordered. It sucks that the meds aren’t covered by insurance for ivf but would be for iui. That extra $3000 is killer but, she gave us the best Christmas gift ever…… All our meds minus the lupron which is only $100. I couldn’t believe it!!!!!!! I feel so blessed already and now that this is the office that will help us get pregnant!
I hope you all have a wonderful holiday and a Happy New Year!!! Here’s to lots of new BFPs!!!!
Doing good feels great!
Yesterday we went to decorate the local AIDS community center with H.arpoon Brewery. This is the second year that they have done this in Albany and my second year being a part of it! Tree was unable to make it, she is in New Hampshire again working. I had invited 3 other friends to come with me. We had a blast! it was so nice to be there interacting with the members and brightening there spririts. Its doing these things that make me so thankful for what we have, eachother, health, jobs, family!
Just a couple more weeks until our appt with our new RE. I am so excited we will have almost all the money for IVF by the time we start. We wont have to finance anything!!!! I cant wait to get back in the game again!
O’ Christmas tree
I am one for tradition, I am one for family. This year I feel slightly empty. For the first time in my life I don’t care if I have a christmas tree. Not because I am sad, but because I dont want the hassle. I dont want to set up the fake tree…..Yes fake, I had one growing up and won the battle with Tree to continue with a fake one. I dont want to take all the H.allmark ornaments out of their perfect boxes, or string the lights. I just dont feel like it. We dont have any holiday celebrations here at our house so why bother. I cant believe it. I do love the lights on the tree in the middle of the night when I walk through the living room to go to the bathroom. I guess it could just be because it is so early, I just dont know. So as of right now, no tree. I cant say I wont change my mind but for now….Bah Humbug!
Only a few more weeks until our consult with the new RE. I cant wait. I feel so out of the loop and I hate that we arent trying right now. Tree has been doing some side work with her dad on the weekend and making good money so maybe we will be able to do IVF sooner then we thought!!!!
Most thankful
Today, I am so thankful for being blessed with a wonderful wife. A wife that deals with me being an only child and slightly selfish. A wife that lets me have my mood swings and rarely holds them against me. A wife that allows me to be me and loves me for it. A wife that I will be with forever. I am thankful!
I am also thankful for my family understanding that I couldnt be home with them to celebrate. My inlaws always making me feel at home. My adorable nieces that make me smile over and over. Our dogs. Also, being able to live in a manner that has allowed us to not “need” anything.
Today, I think about those who are less fortunate then us, and know that they are thankful today as well.
Holidays are around the corner!
I love this time of year, all the decorations in the stores, buying gifts, remembering family traditions. I just love it! Last year Tree and I adopted a needy family for the holidays. We didnt buy each other gifts, we didnt have anything we really wanted and we just get things as we go. We never really wait to buy anything. So, this year I ended up adopting 2 families. My coworkers wanted to adopt one so I have one with them and then the one that Tree and I will shop for. Ours is a dad, he likes sweaters. A 10 year old little girl, she would like a l.ite b.right and a e.asy b.ake oven. Likes pink, blue, and white clothes. A 12 year old boy, he likes remote control cars, race tracks and G.I. J.oes. A nice modest list. A friend of mine adopted a family through her church, the list….. A Wii and 5 games, a guitar, and the mom of all people wanted an I.Pod T.ouch and A $75 perfume. Really? How needy are you if those are the things you are asking for? I was so shocked at the list and it really bothered me. I mean, we will spend about $100 a person for the family we adopted but that will include multiple items for them. It really just saddened me that a mother who is asking for help from another person would even ask for those things! Ahhhh!
On the bench
Boy does it feel weird not taking any medications on a daily basis, not going to dr appt after dr appt, not hoping that this is the month. Its all so weird. After the Clinical Trial didnt work out we decided that we are going to go to the other fertility clinic up here instead of the one we did the IUIs with (I think I mentioned this before?) The have better prices, and seem to just have a better attitude. They also have great specials on IVF! We are excited and have an appt on 12/21. It just seems so far away. I feel like we are wasting time just waiting for the appointment. It all ends up working out though because my new insurance wont kick in until 12/1 and we NEED that!! I just cant wait. Its like starting a whole new TTC this time, we are bringing out the big guns….IVF!!!
And we are OUT!
I received a call yesterday from the FC. I could tell by the nurses tone things weren’t going to be good. My one little emby was 2 days behind. She said they would watch it one more day, some times they pick up the pace! I knew after I hung up the phone that this was over. I just got off the phone and they will be discarding the emby, it just couldnt make it.
I had to speak with Mr. Accent who sounded like he was going to cry. He is usually all business and somewhat cold. Not today. He said he was sorry more than I can count, that he wanted to make sure that I would be ok. I told him that we knew what could happen and that I was grateful for the experience. He said I was a strong woman and truly could not believe I was taking it so well. I said that there are worse things in life that can happen. We will continue to move forward and things will be ok. He did say that I should have Tree apply for the trial as he would love to see me back there and cant see why she would not be accepted!
Now, dont get me wrong. Tree and I did have a good cry last night, but all and all today is a new day and we are ok. We will be looking into doing Conventional IVF hopefully in January! I think that trying the IUIs at this point with me are pointless. There is a center up here that is offering a great special on 2 IVF cycles. If I dont get a BFP after that, I will let Tree see what it feels like!
Sperm…..meet egg!
I recieved a call from the FC today at 5:15pm. My one lovely egg has been fertilized and they will call me 11/4 to let me know the status on day 5. I know it will grow the way it needs to and will be ready to be frozen! I am hopeful and excited!
